New Beginning

One Year?  It has been nearly 1 year since the last time I updates.  It has been a tough time of healing.  One thing I don't do well is meet heartache, betrayal and grief head on.  I must admit, it took me out of the gym for months.  I was in a very dark place, and getting up for the gym at 4:20 was impossible.  I did the only things that was expected of me.  And, I would have to say that doing them, and doing them well was tough.  I got up, went to work, went home played with kids, repeat.  School year started, and my joy came back in pieces.  It was time to get back in my normal routine.  Okay, okay, I must admit.  A friend of mine from my gym came by my house one evening and told me to get my butt back in the gym.  I agreed to meet him in body pump class in the morning.  He promised to set me up.  I stood him up and stayed out another week.  What was my problem?  If gaining weight is an olympic sport, I would be a gold medal champion.  Yes, I have put on weight due to my breakup.  Who can i blame but myself?  I will say this, though.  I had no plans of my gym friends who knew me as a chiseled, fitness fanatic seeing my round face, and thick thighs.  (with a bit of a gut).  Uggg, how did I let myself get back here?  I eat through my sadness, and i became immobile for months.  No calorie burn aside from my daily activity of work at a desk job.  Now, the annie is upped for me.  I am working out, not to stay fit, or perfect my arms and booty.  I am now losing fat, as I am maintaining my well hidden muscle.  I started out my doing cardio mix on mondays and thursdays and spin class at 5am on fridays.  Great classes, with good friends.  My problem?  I have this secret love.  High intensity workouts with megaweights.  Who do I miss?  That beast named crossfit.  I have now joined a local box and can't wait for my new story of strength and endurance.  (in case you were wondering, total weight gain 50 pounds)